The light netted sunbeam from the tree across the road dances on the ground, the leaves rustling a little playing with the sun…the little black bird on the tree occasionally chirping. I jot down all of it while I snuggle in my blanket. Winter has always had this special touch to it. It is cold…yet warm in some way!
The warmth never feels better than how it does in the cold…sounds legit, doesn’t it?
It is all about how something or someone makes you feel.
It makes you feel right…it is right! It does not make you feel nice…it probably isn’t!
This has no deep thought attached to this because once in a while it feels good not to be thinking about something in particular and then creating storms in your head about it. At times it feels nice to just go with the flow and do what makes you happy.
Like write a random blog with no central theme! 😀
It is like pouring my heart out to the world (The world isn’t reading this I know, they have better things to do…but they can if they are willing to!) like YOU! You know what I mean.
All of this might sound like crap then be it crap! I don’t really care! Crap feels GOOOD!!!
It just feels good. Once in a while you should care enough to make yourself feel good. This is not being selfish…not at all. It is just taking care of oneself, which I feel is really necessary…keep your soul happy! I know it sounds so easy here…like I have forgotten about all the troubles and tragedies and how they are a vital part of my life. That is that…they are there…like always…and believe me they are not going anywhere. Even if I stop looking at them and completely ignore them for a day they will still be by my side (So loyal, I tell you!)
So I guess I can take them for granted once in a while…provided I am not particularly crazy about them as such. All they do is generate chaos in my soul after all! (Well, here I am just trying to bury my guilt about ditching my problems as I feel sorry for them :P)
Let me tell you something! This actually feels nice. Ditching my chaotic thoughts and ignoring the things that make me sad. It is like laughing in the face of my problems! It leaves me with a sense of victory.
I know I will go back to them in a day or maybe two (since, being this way feels so good) but the bottom line is IT MAKES ME FEEL NICE!!
So this is what I have decided- Whenever the chaos grows exponentially and things go out of my control, I will leave all control and pretend like it is not there and maybe I will just have coffee, watch a movie and take a nap!
Even the thought of this makes me Happy! 😀
PS: I am not running away from my issues. Just gathering the strength to deal with them tomorrow! (Just in case someone was taking this seriously! :P)