Seven Days B&W Pictures: Day#5

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Seven days. Seven black and white photos of your life. No people. No explanation. Challenge someone new each day.

Hello Abby (Little Stories), you are welcome to try the challenge if you wish! 🙂

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Seven Days B&W Pictures: Day#4

Seven days. Seven black and white photos of your life. No people. No explanation. Challenge someone new each day.

Hello Sascha, you are welcome to try the challenge if you wish!

Something about Self-doubt

I cried for about an hour today. Then I called a friend and talked to her for another hour. Two hours of unrest and kiddish bellowing is what it took, for me to come back to my normal self.

Let me tell you why. It was because another friend (a relatively new person in my life) called me and said a few things implying that I’m indifferent and cold.

I took it in a playful manner until I realized that he really meant what he said. The words were right from his heart.

I told him nothing, apart from this that his perception is flawed (because it’s sketchy in the sense that he does not know me completely). Also, I am unable to understand his random ranter for the very same reason; I do not know him enough.

I said this but I didn’t really believe in it at that point. I asked myself quietly “Am I really a cold person?” and tears followed.

While I was on the phone I realized that this very unrest of mine is a counter to his perception. I am not cold, certainly not indifferent. Else, I would not have been sitting in my balcony, crying on the phone because someone called me a few mean things. My friend on the phone told me the same “You should not let this get to your heart cause you know it’s not true. He might be a good person but he is certainly not in a position from where he sees you as the person you really are.” 

We are all very different people and we should at all times be mindful of the same. Things are not always how they seem and so is the case with people. They are so much more than what we see. Just because someone wasn’t kind to you once, does not mean their heart is devoid of kindness and love. Someone said a few mean words does not lead to the conclusion that they are vile. Hasty conclusions are most often worth trash.

People take time. Friendship takes time. So should you, before you make a judgment.

Whether you like it or not other people will judge you. Mostly as the person, you are not. You might have done the same a lot of times, we are all human.

The point of my childish complaining being – Do not nurture self-doubt in your soul over flawed verdicts on your nature. You are not what other people define you to be. And if people are not patient enough to see you as the person you are really are, let them be. The fault is not yours.

We are all worthy of time and patience. Cut yourself some slack and be kind enough to allow other people the same.

 

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David Ellis @ TooFullToWrite Blog
Tooks @ mrtookles (insta-blog)

Kate @ Will Wally Wonder 

Varad @ Loose End of the Red Thread

The Don @ Blended in the Middle Blog 

Palak @ Expressions Blog 

Victoria @ The Loneliness of the Stay-at-Home-Mother Blog 

Namratha @ NamySaysSo Blog 

Ka Malana @ Fiestaestrellas!

Edward @ Edward Fagan Blog

Robert @ Fresh Off the Pad Poetry

Lizzie Ward @ Cats and Chocolate Blog 

Jesska @ Not Throwing Stones

Quixie @ Quixie’s Mind Palace

Heather @ tUrtlettE Blog 

Sarah @ TZBlog

Matt @ The Matticus Kingdom

Cyn @ That Cynking Feeling

 

Seven Days B&W Pictures: DAY#3- Light

Let there be light.

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Seven days. Seven black and white photos of your life. No people. No explanation. Challenge someone new each day.

Hello Biko (Pieced by HB), you are welcome to try the challenge if you wish!

Seven Days B&W Pictures: DAY#2- Solitude

Somedays, silence and solitude is all we need ❤

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Seven days. Seven black and white photos of your life. No people. No explanation. Challenge someone new each day.

Hello Sherina, SherniaSpeaks, you are welcome to try the challenge if you wish!

INFP Trivia 📖

I drafted a fun INFP list; things that speak to me!

  1. Really dumb smart person 🙆
  2. Random acts of kindness 🌼
  3. Just look like they have a plan
  4. Forget all important things, but remember useless stuff
  5. Longer neural network to process stimuli
  6. Strong sense of metaphor
  7. Restless wanderers (in about everything)👻
  8. Spectators on social media (Facebook, Twitter and all that)👀
  9. Know they’re unique but feel useless to other people
  10. Want to matter to the world
  11. BAD BAD at expressing themselves verbally🙊
  12. Oh oh! Look at the moon; look at the stars! Oh my God that DOG! 🐕
  13. Do not exist for things of time and sense✨
  14. HATE HATE competitions and comparisons
  15. Set goals, introspect and dream about them then do nothing!
  16. Cry about doing nothing! 😭
  17. Somebody: “Small talk”; INFP: “Ok, bye. FOREVER”👋
  18. Ignores problems and then stresses about them later
  19. Unaware that rules exist, worried why everyone seems stressed😕
  20. Staring off into space (read: freaking other people out!)
  21. Powered by unusual amount of solitude☮️
  22. Almost nocturnal
  23. Runs on coffee/tea☕
  24. Try to plan things then start crying and then Netflix!📺
  25. Food! FOOd!! FOOD!!!🍔🍟
  26. Nerd about everything (They won’t accept publicly but they know it’s true!)🤓

 

Any other INFPs out there? ❤

Seven Days B&W Pictures: DAY#1 – SPLASH

Okay, this is new! I got nominated for this photo challenge by Riya (check out her blog, she’s really talented!). I don’t usually take up any challenges but this sounds fun. Also, I’ll get to share a few pictures with you all. That means a little break from my routine.

Here are the rules-

“Seven Days. Seven Black and White Photos of my Life challenge presented by Moushmi Radhanpara. No People. No Explanation. Challenge Someone New Each Day. “

P.S. It’s hard to make me follow rules so I might add a few lines(sorry!) 😀

Here’s the first one-

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Little drops trickling down the pane,

they need to stay sane.

One drop adding to the other,

growing in abundance.

Sharing hurt and pain,

they mix and sink in silence.

 

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Ghost @ Teleportingweena
Sibelius Russell @ Consolations Many Form Blog
Sarah @ Mother of Serendipity
Juliette Kings @ Vampire Maman
Lindsay @ The Flynnigans Blog 
Emily @ Zombie Flamingos Blog 
Carolyn R Owens @ Infinity Coaching Leadership Blog
Kitty Litterbox @ Litterbox Riot Blog 
Erica @ The Broken Spine Blog 
Erica @ The Ink Slinger Blog 
Charlene @ The Illusion Of Controlled Chaos Blog 
Sahara @ I Didn’t Just Wake Up This Morning With A Craving Blog
Briton @ Punk Rock Papa Blog
Kim @ Drunk On Life Blog 
David Ellis @ TooFullToWrite Blog

Just another day

Some days are just days… a meaningless ensemble of seconds.

24 hours, that I’m so damn aware of.

I do not wake up with a glimmer of hope in my eyes rather it’s exhaustion and stress. As soon as I wake up, I want to go back to bed. The mere thought of getting through the day drains me. I pull aside the curtains and the light hurts. The buzz of life around makes me mad.

I count each minute and each second with a hope that time will quicken its pace. I focus on my pulse, twitching in my arm and trace the boundary of my fingernail. I’m aware of how frequently I blink and also that there are 18 lights zigzagging down the hallway.  I adjust my hair every two seconds and feel the cold shiver of my hand each time. I feel like I am being watched, I feel like they know!

I drift back from the frame and everything starts speeding. Deafening echoes of laughter and indistinct chatter…form the backdrop. I hear my name echo. I know someone’s calling. I try to gather the shattered pieces of my focus and reach for the glass of water on the desk.

I tell myself – “It’s all fine, you’re doing fine.”

Just one day.

Just another day.

sideKICKs

The cynosure is the lead, incorruptible- indestructible master,

forever beloved.

Rainbow shining high up in the sky!

Flower in its full bloom,

the silver and shimmery moon,

bigger than ever, lighting up the land…pulling off tides.

Then I step back and I’m amazed by what I recognize.

The raindrops and the sun stretching up the rainbow,

The tiny little stars, making the perfect backdrop.

The deep roots beneath the surface, holding on tight.

Then I think about the picture in its entirety,

What WATSON is to Sherlock?

What BUTLER is to Batman?

A bunch of secondaries, in the world of originals.

 

The sun and the rain, to make the rainbows shine.

The roots, to hold the flowers up the vine.

The stars that scatter, for the moon to shine.

 

Bylines to headlines.

Shores to oceans.

Peripherals to vitals.

SideKICKs to heroes!

 

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Sharing is caring! Check out some of these cool blogs, they are participating in Nano PoBlano17:
David Ellis @ TooFullToWrite Blog
Tooks @ mrtookles (insta-blog)
Kate @ Will Wally Wonder 
Varad @ Loose End of the Red Thread
The Don @ Blended in the Middle Blog 
Palak @ Expressions Blog 
Victoria @ The Loneliness of the Stay-at-Home-Mother Blog 
Namratha @ NamySaysSo Blog 
Ka Malana @ Fiestaestrellas!
Edward @ Edward Fagan Blog
Robert @ Fresh Off the Pad Poetry
Lizzie Ward @ Cats and Chocolate Blog 
Jesska @ Not Throwing Stones
Quixie @ Quixie’s Mind Palace
Heather @ tUrtlettE Blog 
Sarah @ TZBlog
Matt @ The Matticus Kingdom
Cyn @ That Cynking Feeling

 

We are all desperate for something

At the restaurant this afternoon, a  little girl was sitting on the adjacent table. Carefully observing me as I play with my food, I caught her staring and smiled at her instantly and she returned the sweetest smile, hesitation free. She was adorable. Her mom watched her smile at me and her lips curved into a smile. Then I got back to eating and they got back to ordering their food and discussing school.

It is simple, life is simple. I thought about the little wordless encounter and it made me smile to myself. It was regular. Two people exchanging a genuine smile for no reason.

Why did I smile at her? Why did she smile back? What made her mother smile? It was nothing, we exchanged energy I would say. Positive energy.

People are strange. Capable of drastic things…we can start wars and hurt people badly. We can do horrible things..destroy nature, plant bombs…kill people and not give a damn about any of it. We are capable of destruction and all sorts of bad things and then we are capable of all things good. The funny thing is, destruction takes so much more effort yet we are ready to give all that in. Goodness comes from all things simple; things that require minimal effort. Yet we are willing to spread destruction, I say this because of the current state of the world. Switch on the news and there’s hurt and destruction all around. Sometimes, I don’t feel like hearing to any of it. It’s heartbreaking but I know turning a blind eye won’t alter reality.

Something as little as smiling at someone is perceived as an act of warmth and kindness. We have always heard of it- ‘smiling at strangers’. We’re communicating without words. We communicate kindness and love; radiate positive energy. See the thing is, I feel vibes are real; you do get different vibes from different people. There are people you would smile at without a hint of hesitation and then there are people otherwise. It is not about how they appear or how they dress, it is something more, something deeper than just appearances. If you can feel it, it’s all in the energy. I do not completely understand how the concept of energy and vibes works but I feel it is real. I’ve felt it and I’ll say that it is rarely wrong.

This is just ranter. I am not trying to make a point, we do what we do. The thing is it is in the most subtle and everyday kind of things that people touch us with kindness, it requires no effort.

This brings me to another thought; we have always heard that the things that are in our nature rarely require effort. They come to us naturally. I’ll hold on to this thought cause it is such a nice one.

Goodness is innate to human nature.

We were all truly kind and loving creatures, our circumstances make us bitter. They make us do things we would not approve of in our right minds. Sometimes we are strong, we do not let pain and misery grow on our kind hearts while other times, we become bitter. Our threshold varies depending on the impact of pain and we can’t judge one another for being who we are and the things we do unless we’ve seen it all for real. Hurt and pain transform us, it either brings one closer to oneself or it tears one apart. We do not react to pain in a similar way. We are countless beings on this earth and no two people are completely alike.

My thoughts are mixed this very moment; unable to focus on one point. Cause there is so much to wonder about. Some might feel I am desperate to find goodness and love and kindness. All things good and warm but the world is not like that. To that, I would say, better be desperate to find good than to find misery and pain. Isn’t it? I guess one day or the other, you find what you’ve been looking for.

So, yes! I am desperate. Desperate to find goodness in this world of misery.

I’ll keep ranting about what moves me. Today a smile moved me tomorrow it might be something/someone else. I am ready to deal with what I feel. Like you, I have my demons; the ugly side. Where I want to hurt people like they have hurt me and I have hurt people who treated me with kindness. I feel sorry for the times I’ve re-payed love with a cold heart and indifference. I am sorry for it but I’ve learned that I should not judge myself for being that person sometimes. Neither should you. We are people; human. We can’t always be right or in sync with the definition of good that others believe in.

Life will keep moving, things will keep happening and we will keep looking for love and kindness. It transforms us just like pain does. It makes us want to return that goodness to the world.

So yes, be desperate for the better. Who knows if you are desperate enough you might bump into what you are looking for. Like Paulo said in The Alchemist

“When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.”

Go ahead, ask for love and kindness, for yourself and for others.

 

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Sharing is caring! Check out some of these cool blogs, they are participating in Nano PoBlano17:
Ghost @ Teleportingweena
Sibelius Russell @ Consolations Many Form Blog
Sarah @ Mother of Serendipity
Juliette Kings @ Vampire Maman
Lindsay @ The Flynnigans Blog 
Emily @ Zombie Flamingos Blog 
Carolyn R Owens @ Infinity Coaching Leadership Blog
Kitty Litterbox @ Litterbox Riot Blog 
Erica @ The Broken Spine Blog 
Erica @ The Ink Slinger Blog 
Charlene @ The Illusion Of Controlled Chaos Blog 
Sahara @ I Didn’t Just Wake Up This Morning With A Craving Blog
Briton @ Punk Rock Papa Blog
Kim @ Drunk On Life Blog 
David Ellis @ TooFullToWrite Blog